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Monday, May 2, 2016
less tv = more laundry
After too many bickerings about who wants to - or gets to - watch some show/movie/episode on Netflix, Amazon, etc... we're cutting out almost all media intake for a while. We haven't had cable tv since about 2004, but still... we all know that youtube can get consuming. I wish it wasn't so, but too often I've allowed especially the boys to "veg out" for far too long. I have to admit that it's easier at times to keep them occupied if I have other things to take care of - but it's grown into an unhealthy dependency.
So, tonight we took off for the park after dinner. I grabbed my mitt, bat and some balls and we headed toward the schoolyard. After about a hundred pitches, swings, misses and some hits - I got ambushed, tackled... so we rolled around wrestling and laughing in the wet grass and mud.
we all came back damp and filthy, but it was a great night together.
i don't have any problem doing more laundry for that.
So, tonight we took off for the park after dinner. I grabbed my mitt, bat and some balls and we headed toward the schoolyard. After about a hundred pitches, swings, misses and some hits - I got ambushed, tackled... so we rolled around wrestling and laughing in the wet grass and mud.
we all came back damp and filthy, but it was a great night together.
i don't have any problem doing more laundry for that.
Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life.
Prov. 4:23
Friday, June 5, 2015
over the last year...
I just realized it's been a year since writing anything here.
I've started to write a few times over the last several months - just wasn't ready.
To be honest, the last year has been full of joys, pains, questions, doubts, accomplishments, mis-steps, sprints, backsteps, hesitations and some progress... I'll write some about those things in the weeks and months to come.
But to get some momentum - here are are a handful of things that have influenced and impacted my life - and the lives of our family over the last year. We have learned a lot through these experiences and it my hope that these experiences will encourage you to strive for God's best for your life as well - despite fears, doubts, obstacles and uncertainties.
I've started to write a few times over the last several months - just wasn't ready.
To be honest, the last year has been full of joys, pains, questions, doubts, accomplishments, mis-steps, sprints, backsteps, hesitations and some progress... I'll write some about those things in the weeks and months to come.
But to get some momentum - here are are a handful of things that have influenced and impacted my life - and the lives of our family over the last year. We have learned a lot through these experiences and it my hope that these experiences will encourage you to strive for God's best for your life as well - despite fears, doubts, obstacles and uncertainties.
May 2014
- Our church continued to meet in the St Francis Society Building in Portland
- Including children in our worship service has it's challenges - yet incredible blessings
- (as of May 2015 we meet at 12pm on Sundays at First Church on Court St in Middletown)
June 2014
- Family vacation to Niagara Falls
July 2014
- our annual trip to Soulfest
Aug 2014
- Our New House (built ca. 1917) We bought our home through an online auction in June - spent the next few weeks getting it ready to move in and moved in officially Aug 1.
- Our Church's first baptism service!
Sept 2014
- We celebrated Kenni's 13th birthday -- (How did I become a parent of a teenager?)
- We cut down *most* of our giant tree. Now, what to do with the stump?
- Installed a new heating system in our house with the help of a dear friend - and TK
Oct 2014
- premarital counseling for Johnny and Katie - and had the privilege to assist in their wedding
Nov 2014
- Sasha begining guitar- occasionally she is now able to lead worship songs at church
- Friendsgiving Meal at our house- So thankful for all our space!
Dec 2014
- Served at a nursing home for HIV/AIDS patients with our family and friends
- Our families came to our house in CT to celebrate with us - very cool.
Jan 2015
- Reinforcing mealtime manners
- Our Church served at a Soup Kitchen with our families - it's great serving together
Feb 2015
- We got A LOT of snow again this year
- Our Church took our first mission trip to Haiti from Feb 14-21 - what an adventure!
March 2015
- Andy and the Coward's Choir came to NYC
- my boys learning the value of work ethic
April 2015
- Annual fundraising banquet for the ABC Women's Center
- I turned 40 - and on my birthday, the African Children's Choir played at our local High School for over 400 people in our community
This month; May 2015:
- Our Church began to share space with a local church here in Middletown
- I returned to work with Crane Nuclear part time - and worked in Belgium again.
- Our family got special passes to see the Blue Angels
- Amy got her brace so she could run outside again
- I finally got to go skydiving
I'm sure there will be more struggles, doubts, joys, pains and refinement... and the adventure continues.
Friday, May 23, 2014
The Adventure Continues
To be truthful, we have found a sense of belonging and connection in our Middletown community that we've not experienced at any earlier point in our lives. We were willing to wait longer for a job opportunity if necessary, but the more we waited the more God seemed to be developing a different path for us. About six years ago, I met Ves Sheely. Ves is the New England District Superintendant of the Evangelical Free Church of America. Over the years, Ves has been an incredible voice of insight and encouragement in helping Amy and I determine where we may fit best in ministry. Ves made his thoughts clear early on - but I was very reluctant to even entertain his idea of planting a church. However, during the fall of 2013 that call seemed to be crystalize for Amy and I and we went to our knees to ask God to confirm His call.
Over several weeks of prayer, consideration and planning we met with a few families who shared our convictions about the mission of the church.Then, after overcoming some logistical obstacles, we finally met as a group made up of about 30 people the first week of January. As we shared the vision that God had been cultivating in our hearts others resonated with it and the sense of unity grew. We all had more questions, but the unity we shared compelled us to move forward and we decided that evening to begin meeting together the following week.
Truthfully, I expected it to take more time... I guess I wanted it to take more time... but after that first time of sharing and worship together we knew it was time.
Our Core Values are as follows:
- Gospel Centered Worship
- Gospel Centered Discipleship
- Gospel Centered Family
- Gospel Centered Community
- Gospel Centered Generosity
- Gospel Centered Mission
You can read about these core values here. But in short, over the course of the last 15 years of ministry Amy and I have become more and more burdened to help families become the primary discipler of the home (Dt. 6:4-9; Titus 2:1-5). Up until the early 20th century that's the way it was. Unfortunately, over the last 50 years or so, that leadership responsibility has greatly deteriorated. Today, many church families struggle to grasp Jesus' call to discipleship (Mt. 16:24) - and because Gospel Centered Discipleship is not happening in the home it's failing everywhere else. Therefore our value of Gospel Centered Family is naturally tied to Discipleship.
Jesus call to discipleship is radical...and since the Church is - unfortunately - more known for what it is against; along with its hypocrisy - the Church has become anemic and irrelevant. Anemic Christianity is not compelling - so together we surrender to Jesus and continue on the relentless pursuit of The Father and His will for our lives. We will never be perfect - but as a church we are compelled to run after Jesus with all we've got... and lead and love the next generation to do the same.
Therefore, discipleship must be a primary focus and - as a church - we have an obligtion to help others learn who Jesus has called them to BE... to help them DO what He's called them to DO. This sense of duty must come from the overflow of The Gospel. That's what Jesus expected of his first followers too. From the first conversations Jesus had with his soon-to-be disciples -- He called them to be "fishers of men." (Mt. 4:19) -- in essence leading them to be not just "lemmings" but disciple-makers. That sense of mission carried all the way through His ministry!
Unfortunately - especially over the last 100 years or so - Jesus call has deteriorated in the family which has deeply affected the modern church today.
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So, discipleship and family will contiue to be deep convictions for Covenant Life Church.
The value of Generosity was also forged through the last several years of ministry experience. As Amy and I were praying about how to make the greatest impact in our world (Acts 1:8) for The Gospel... we were struck with the fact that the average American church gives less than 10% of their budget to missions and most of that small amount goes into US based minsitry. Today, the US Church spends an estimated 2% of their budgets on the most needy of the world.
Considering the fact that Americans are less than 5% of the World Population and that about 2 billion pepole, representing over 3000 people groups have not heard The Gospel.... we wanted to think differently about way we structured our budget.
So, we felt God callng us to do something a bit unique - to live on 50% of our Church income, and to give away the other half. (inspired in-part by 100x Church in Huntsville, AL)
Now, we don't believe that every church - necessarily - is called to do the same, and we don't really know how long God will have us continue our budget structured in this way. We will continually analyze and evaluate the best use of ministry dollars. At this point, however, God has been blessing us abundantly - and providing for us, so we march on.
These ministry dollars are strategically placed with organizations and ministries that build bridges in our community and advance the kingdom of God. The criteria we have to provide fiancial support is specific enough that we are not spread too thin, but general enough that we are not constricted by perameters that would prevent us from supporting wholesome efforts to build bridges of relationships in our region.
What it looks like on Sunday
On February 6th the New England District Board of Directors voted to officially approve Covenant Life Churchas to be a part of the Evangelical Free Church of America. This association provides excellent oversight but also the freedom to lead our church in the way that God has convicted us. We have not been more "terrified" and excited at the same time... Every week is is an adventure.. and I'm sure it will continue to be. Currrently, we meet in a small community center with about about 10 families. So there are about 20 adults and about 30 kids. Since family is a core value, we all meet in the same space together.
When we discussed this idea initially, it was a little hard to imagine for some of us - especially since many folks who have any church background are accustomed to separate kids' programs. However, we have decided to build our entire church experience and worship service around integrated learning and intergenerational interaction. Now, we have seniors investing into middle aged couples, who are interacting with newly married couples who spend time with collegiates who are investing into teens and children. This environment provides a platform even to children and young adults to share the wisdom they have gleaned. So, some of the most profound questions and insights during our discussion time have come from teens and children. If a comment is shared that is somewhat off course, we redirect if necessary to correctly understand the text, but the beauty of the connection is that we all learn better, together.
To facilitate this envioronment, we don't sit in rows, but instead at tables and our teaching is essentially broken into three segments.
- Introduction (with Children)
- Table and Group Discussion
- Application
The time allotments to these sections vary somewhat week to week, but essentially we begin the teaching with the kids, introducing the concepts of the text, then we will dig a little deeper into the passage when the children return to their seats with their families. Then based on the text, we will discuss two questions - which require the families and table groups to look at the text themselves to determine the answer to the discussion questions.
We have a lot to learn, but we are excited about what God is doing in this small community of disciples. Each week brings it's own adventures... and frustrations - It's inevitable that something doeesn't go as according to plan. That said, we are so thankful for how God has led us so far, and we look forward to what lies ahead!
If you are local to us and don't have a church home, join us on Sunday mornings at 10am. We'd be glad to see you! We meet at the St Francis Society Community Center at 79 Freestone Ave, Portland, CT. 06457
The adventure continues...
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Rest... then Risk.
The Summer was great for us – we really needed the time together. When the kids finished school we went to Niagara Falls for a few days. We came home and then left several days later to spend the 4th of July weekend to see family and friends in the Hershey area.
We came home again and then took off again for Plymouth, MA. I enjoyed seeing the history around “Plimouth Plantation”, but the kids seemed to be more excited about the cannon tower and the cow-incident. We got some excitement when Sasha’s chin got a little too close to a cow’s head next to the fence. The little bump just scared her.
A week after we got back from camping in MA, we left again for Soulfest. It was great to be with thousands of other families praising God while having a lot of fun together. We wrapped up our summer with a few trips to our beloved Camp Spofford. Kenni went to her week first, then Sasha and then Ash and I went together on a father/son retreat in Mid-August.
When the kids started their new year of School, so did I.. and Amy. Amy had been planning to start back one class at a time in pursuit of her Master’s of Science in Nursing. She loves nursing and loves being on her floor. It’s strenuous, but she loves her coworkers and the working environment. However, considering the rigors of the nursing floor – Amy’s got her sights set on either a management position or a teaching position in the years ahead. We’ll see.
As for me, I’ve decided to continue on to complete my Master’s of Divinity. The classes are all extremely practical and they line up one right after the other. At this point, it looks like I'll finish in May 2015. I’ve been doing a lot of praying and soul searching about where God may lead us to serve next. Honestly, I’m having a hard time with that because we’d love to stay right here in Middletown where we’ve invested the last 7 years of our lives. That said, we know God may have other plans for us. Now, we’re praying for the right fit to use the best of what we have to honor God in the most effective way.
We would appreciate your prayer for guidance for us as well. The last year has been a whirlwind for us , so ‘the waiting posture’ is nice in some ways, but neither Amy nor I like not knowing what the plan is.
I’m wrestling with the whole idea because I know none of us want to leave our community, yet there doesn’t seem to be an existing opportunity that fits us. I’ve begun to talk to an organization about planting a church, but I’m unsure if that’s the best thing for us.
Some of my hesitation is not wanting to move. Some of my hesitation is insecurity…and some of it is the weight of the responsibility we’re headed toward. However, I know God has called us to obedience and to risk it all for His Glory. So, with God’s help, that is where I’m committed to lead my family.
What’s your journey like? Is there anything you’d love to do, but are hesitating for some reason? Feel free to comment and share so we can be an encouragement to each other.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Progress with Ash
A few months ago, we met a wonderful therapist who has a practice not far from us. I’ll call her, Jan. Jan specializes in kids with traumatic backgrounds and attachment disorders. You may recall a post some time ago explaining our struggles with Ashebir.
When Ash came home with us he was almost four. We were his fourth ‘home’ and that took a toll on his heart. For maybe the last year, Amy and I couldn't decide I Ash was making emotionally and cognitively… After a few very difficult days with him, we agreed to pursue professional help (well, actually I finally came to grips with the fact that I couldn't “fix him” on my own)… Anyway, our Jan has been extremely helpful. It seems that Ash is making progress, but Amy and I agree that what’s been most helpful for us, is that we’ve learned how to respond to him in a more appropriate way.
I used to think that if I just love him and provided proper discipline - in the same way as we have done with our other three - he would just “get better”. For a long time, I was reluctant to get outside help I thought that somehow that was admitting defeat. I didn’t ever want to have to depend on a “professional” to help me parent my kids. That thought was arrogant.
After a few sessions without Ash, Jan helped Amy and I walk through a few “attachment sequences” with Ash. With Jan’s coaching, we are learning to help him process and respond appropriately to life.
The insight from Jan and the book by Dan Hughes that she’s had us read has been incredibly helpful. Now, when we’re home and some interaction causes him to “flip out” and become totally “dis-regulated” we've learned to help calm him and most importantly increase his sense of safety and security.
During these outbursts, he can be a danger to himself or to one of his siblings. I sit with him in my lap and just hold him so he doesn’t hurt himself or anyone else. I have to admit, I was skeptical… however, now when Ash calms down he almost always, turns around in my lap and gives me a hug. The other day, he flew off the handle so I sat with him, talked to him in a quiet and soothing way while he tried to resist… but several minutes later he was calm. The hard thing about this right now, is that he’s not as receptive to Amy’s pursuit of him. She’s making progress with him but, it’s hard at times.
Until recently, I just didn’t understand the critical nature of attachment to a child’s emotional and spiritual well being. Now I do, and I’m so thankful for the help that we’re getting. It might be slow, but it’s progress.
When Ash came home with us he was almost four. We were his fourth ‘home’ and that took a toll on his heart. For maybe the last year, Amy and I couldn't decide I Ash was making emotionally and cognitively… After a few very difficult days with him, we agreed to pursue professional help (well, actually I finally came to grips with the fact that I couldn't “fix him” on my own)… Anyway, our Jan has been extremely helpful. It seems that Ash is making progress, but Amy and I agree that what’s been most helpful for us, is that we’ve learned how to respond to him in a more appropriate way.
I used to think that if I just love him and provided proper discipline - in the same way as we have done with our other three - he would just “get better”. For a long time, I was reluctant to get outside help I thought that somehow that was admitting defeat. I didn’t ever want to have to depend on a “professional” to help me parent my kids. That thought was arrogant.
After a few sessions without Ash, Jan helped Amy and I walk through a few “attachment sequences” with Ash. With Jan’s coaching, we are learning to help him process and respond appropriately to life.
The insight from Jan and the book by Dan Hughes that she’s had us read has been incredibly helpful. Now, when we’re home and some interaction causes him to “flip out” and become totally “dis-regulated” we've learned to help calm him and most importantly increase his sense of safety and security.
During these outbursts, he can be a danger to himself or to one of his siblings. I sit with him in my lap and just hold him so he doesn’t hurt himself or anyone else. I have to admit, I was skeptical… however, now when Ash calms down he almost always, turns around in my lap and gives me a hug. The other day, he flew off the handle so I sat with him, talked to him in a quiet and soothing way while he tried to resist… but several minutes later he was calm. The hard thing about this right now, is that he’s not as receptive to Amy’s pursuit of him. She’s making progress with him but, it’s hard at times.
Until recently, I just didn’t understand the critical nature of attachment to a child’s emotional and spiritual well being. Now I do, and I’m so thankful for the help that we’re getting. It might be slow, but it’s progress.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Ready for Soul Fest... and for soul-rest.
Amy's working tonight so I'm just finishing some final packing for our trek to Soul Fest tomorrow! All of us are so excited to spend four days with thousands of 'friends'- spending time with their own families and and worshiping God together.
Last night I completed my next assignment for my online class so I wouldn't have to worry about trying to submit any assignments while at the festival this weekend. -- Which reminds me...
I remember last year trying to carve out time during the kids mid-day naps - I had to get a term paper done and submitted...what a project... what was worse, I came down with strep throat that week too. That was ridiculous.
Anyway, the #teamzipf camper is ready to roll and we're ready for some R n R together.
I'm also looking forward for the time away to pray and reflect with Amy too... I'll be looking to make some connections for ministry opportunities in the region as well. At this point, I'm grateful for the connections and encouragement that God has provided so far. I"m sure God has just the right fit for us... but He's not yet made clear where that will be. We'll keep pushing on doors and praying for guidance, none the less.
We know that God has our best interest in mind and we know that he has led us through the experiences that he has for a reason... The refining process isn't easy, but what we do know is that God is leading. want to use the best of what we have to minister here in New England.
We don't know yet where God will place us, but we will continue to trust that He's leading in that direction even now.
Meanwhile, we will continue to "...trust in the Lord with all our heart and lean not on our own understanding, but in all our ways acknowledge HIM... and trust that He will make our path straight. (from Prov. 3:5-6)
Last night I completed my next assignment for my online class so I wouldn't have to worry about trying to submit any assignments while at the festival this weekend. -- Which reminds me...
I remember last year trying to carve out time during the kids mid-day naps - I had to get a term paper done and submitted...what a project... what was worse, I came down with strep throat that week too. That was ridiculous.
Anyway, the #teamzipf camper is ready to roll and we're ready for some R n R together.
I'm also looking forward for the time away to pray and reflect with Amy too... I'll be looking to make some connections for ministry opportunities in the region as well. At this point, I'm grateful for the connections and encouragement that God has provided so far. I"m sure God has just the right fit for us... but He's not yet made clear where that will be. We'll keep pushing on doors and praying for guidance, none the less.
We know that God has our best interest in mind and we know that he has led us through the experiences that he has for a reason... The refining process isn't easy, but what we do know is that God is leading. want to use the best of what we have to minister here in New England.
We don't know yet where God will place us, but we will continue to trust that He's leading in that direction even now.
Meanwhile, we will continue to "...trust in the Lord with all our heart and lean not on our own understanding, but in all our ways acknowledge HIM... and trust that He will make our path straight. (from Prov. 3:5-6)
Friday, July 19, 2013
HELP NEEDED for hurting 7yr old male. bn. in Ethiopia. Gotcha Date: 02.23.10
I've noticed his anger and inappropriate reactions off and on the last couple years. Even still, whenever Ashebir has reacted disrespectfully or in a spiteful way, we've tried hard to be consistent with addressing each incident with appropriate consequences. However, I've honestly felt like the issues he's exhibited he'd either learn from or grow out of. But I've come to grips with the fact that we need outside help to lead and love Ashebir well. We would appreciate your prayer for us on this journey.
We have been referred to some good counselors, and are in the process of determining which will be the best fit for our family.
At this point we think some of his issues are related to Reactive Attachment Disorder but some of his struggles could be related to developmental difficulties as well. Some may understand how difficult this is to write because I can't stand labels. I dislike putting "labels" on anyone especially kids - which often just excuses inappropriate behavior that should be dealt with through appropriate love, conflict resolution, affection and consequences.
That said, Ashebir did not have a healthy beginning... he's got a lot of baggage. All I want to do is love my son and help him through the struggles he's unable to navigate in a way that other children are able to.
I wish I would have been more intentional before, so I've got some catching up to do. That said, I am determined to find the help we need. Amy feels the same...in fact she has wanted to seek professional help for Ash for some time now but the magnitude of especially the last several months has contributed to putting this off - no more excuses.
A couple years ago, I wrote a letter from Ashebir to me... all the things that I wished he could say. I believe that someday that we will be able to have those interactions I wrote about, but I want to walk with him one day at a time, one step at a time. Wherever we get, it will be together.
At this point, Amy and I are trying not to feel so discouraged... We just feel like we've not made the kind of progress with him we would like. In fact we feel like we've plateaued and are not sure how to help him get through whatever anger and trust issues he has.
This past year in Kindergarten Ash had his moments, but did make a lot of progress. For that we are incredibly grateful, but there are still some things we can't seem to over come.
Our troubles with Ashebir are related to almost any direction that Amy or I give him. Whether it's the options of cereal for breakfast, a choice of a toy or game to play with, what shoes to wear, what crayon to use, which entree to select or what seat to sit in at dinner time... It doesn't seem to matter... he's wants something completely different. Also, he seems to have a difficult time with any change or transition - regardles of what or where it is. I realize that some kids have issues with healthy perameters or acceptable choices, but this is different and we feel at a loss.
On a more encouraging note, Ash has developed very well physically. He's a strong and coordinated athlete and dancer. We know God has great things in store for him... and He we are confident that God will use Ashebir in some incredible ways as he matures.
A few years later, Paul wrote an encouraging letter to the Christian brothers and sisters in Philippi, and in chapter one he said, "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." (Phil. 1:6)
This is my prayer for all my kids... and especially for Ashebir as we walk through this with him. I know God has big plans for Ash because of God's promises - not because Ash (or anyone one of us) deserve God's Grace, but because of how Great and Awesome God is, even through the trials we encounter along the way.
We have been referred to some good counselors, and are in the process of determining which will be the best fit for our family.
At this point we think some of his issues are related to Reactive Attachment Disorder but some of his struggles could be related to developmental difficulties as well. Some may understand how difficult this is to write because I can't stand labels. I dislike putting "labels" on anyone especially kids - which often just excuses inappropriate behavior that should be dealt with through appropriate love, conflict resolution, affection and consequences.
That said, Ashebir did not have a healthy beginning... he's got a lot of baggage. All I want to do is love my son and help him through the struggles he's unable to navigate in a way that other children are able to.
I wish I would have been more intentional before, so I've got some catching up to do. That said, I am determined to find the help we need. Amy feels the same...in fact she has wanted to seek professional help for Ash for some time now but the magnitude of especially the last several months has contributed to putting this off - no more excuses.
A couple years ago, I wrote a letter from Ashebir to me... all the things that I wished he could say. I believe that someday that we will be able to have those interactions I wrote about, but I want to walk with him one day at a time, one step at a time. Wherever we get, it will be together.
At this point, Amy and I are trying not to feel so discouraged... We just feel like we've not made the kind of progress with him we would like. In fact we feel like we've plateaued and are not sure how to help him get through whatever anger and trust issues he has.
This past year in Kindergarten Ash had his moments, but did make a lot of progress. For that we are incredibly grateful, but there are still some things we can't seem to over come.
Our troubles with Ashebir are related to almost any direction that Amy or I give him. Whether it's the options of cereal for breakfast, a choice of a toy or game to play with, what shoes to wear, what crayon to use, which entree to select or what seat to sit in at dinner time... It doesn't seem to matter... he's wants something completely different. Also, he seems to have a difficult time with any change or transition - regardles of what or where it is. I realize that some kids have issues with healthy perameters or acceptable choices, but this is different and we feel at a loss.
He is often belligerent and seems to go the opposite direction from various instruction he's given. Also, he doesn't seem to understand or exhibit remorse for his wrongdoing (hurting his siblings during play time which may result in an altercation) Further, we've tried a few different forms of discipline and nothing seems to be very effective.
On a more encouraging note, Ash has developed very well physically. He's a strong and coordinated athlete and dancer. We know God has great things in store for him... and He we are confident that God will use Ashebir in some incredible ways as he matures.
As I've been pondering these things especially over the last several days, two verses have come to mind. I trust that they'll be equally encouraging to you as you may be dealing with your own heartaches...
When the Apostle Paul wrote to the Church in Corinth he did so to admonish, challenge and love them.. The Corinthians were being disobedient and Paul refused to allow it to go on unaddressed. So he gave them a lot of firm and loving counsel, but in 1 Cor 2, he quotes from the ancient prophet Isaiah (64:4) and says, "What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him." (1Cor. 2:9)
A few years later, Paul wrote an encouraging letter to the Christian brothers and sisters in Philippi, and in chapter one he said, "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." (Phil. 1:6)
This is my prayer for all my kids... and especially for Ashebir as we walk through this with him. I know God has big plans for Ash because of God's promises - not because Ash (or anyone one of us) deserve God's Grace, but because of how Great and Awesome God is, even through the trials we encounter along the way.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
"hey, that'll kill ya..."
during a work out the other day, I ran by a younger guy who was smoking... and I quipped, "hey, that'll kill ya."
Now.. as a caveat... let me say first, that I'm an advocate for LIMITED Government and I believe our Political Leaders need to focus on spending less to eradicate the egregious debt they've amassed, concentrate on protecting our nation while creating an environment for business to flourish instead of tax us to death.... ok, that's it for the political rant.
I didn't stop and get in his face, I didn't quote a bunch of stuff from JAMA and I didn't say what I did secretly hoping that more laws would be passed to prevent him from smoking.
I made a quick remark in passing... and I guess I just started to think a little more about what I said, how I said it and most importantly why I said anything at all.
To get right to the point, I understand some of the consequences. There are several directions we could go here philosophically including discussions on many other "bad habits" which can be detrimental to one's health... Just suffice it to say that in the moment I was concerned and I expressed my concern.
I made a quick remark in passing... and I guess I just started to think a little more about what I said, how I said it and most importantly why I said anything at all.
To get right to the point, I understand some of the consequences. There are several directions we could go here philosophically including discussions on many other "bad habits" which can be detrimental to one's health... Just suffice it to say that in the moment I was concerned and I expressed my concern.
Truth be told, we all have habits that aren't very healthy... but when I ran by him I felt compelled to say something because I was concerned about his well being... and more importantly his heart.
For further insight check out -- Mt. 19:16:30
Thursday, June 20, 2013
15 years
We had no idea what was in store for us then... and the trend of ongoing-unknown-adventure continues.... this next chapter of our lives is no different.
We're excited to see where God will lead next.
Happy 15th Anniversary Amy, I love you!
(The original video footage was taken by Amy's Uncle Sid Roberts, on June 20, 1998 on a VHS camcorder)
This highlight version was edited and remastered by Videographer Extraodinaire, Dustin Schultz. He did a fantastic job with a 15 year old VHS tape... enjoy.
We're excited to see where God will lead next.
Happy 15th Anniversary Amy, I love you!
(The original video footage was taken by Amy's Uncle Sid Roberts, on June 20, 1998 on a VHS camcorder)
This highlight version was edited and remastered by Videographer Extraodinaire, Dustin Schultz. He did a fantastic job with a 15 year old VHS tape... enjoy.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
two weeks... or two months
Some days it feels like two weeks...and some days it feels like I have two months of work to do in those two weeks. Life doesn't stop in the middle of these most strenuous times either. Last night I got a call from a close friend... he and his wife are going through a hard time. It was good to talk and be able to encourage him. It made for a later night, but it was worth it.
I was also encouraged by a recent email I got from my professor who oversees my final oral exam and thesis paper which I submitted and defended on 5/16. To make a long story short, he had some valuable feedback for me, but confirmed that I passed that exam.
Whew...
The next two weeks will be hard... but graduation is only 16days away.
#keepon
2Cor. 12:9-10
I was also encouraged by a recent email I got from my professor who oversees my final oral exam and thesis paper which I submitted and defended on 5/16. To make a long story short, he had some valuable feedback for me, but confirmed that I passed that exam.
Whew...
The next two weeks will be hard... but graduation is only 16days away.
#keepon
2Cor. 12:9-10
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Pressing on
The last couple weeks have been encouraging for us
and we are beginning to have some renewed peace. Amy was released to drive and
return to work on Friday 4/12. They've eased her back in at work.. and she's
starting to get her groove back.
The recent visit we had with Dr Miller in NYC (for a second opinion)
proved to be a huge blessing. We saw him together on 4/10 and he spent an hour
and a half with us. He was unphased by any of our questions, concerns or
Amy's symptoms. He also told us that what we thought were seizures were
not seizures at all, but spasms directly related to MS, which are treatable.
(She's not had any of those spasms for over a month now.)
Then after all that, Dr Miller scheduled an appointment see
her less than a week later to discuss a treatment plan.
So, on that Monday (4/15) Amy took Ash and made a date of it. He had an
awesome time with Mommy and can't wait to ride the train again.
Based on that appointment, Dr Miller gave us insight on the
best treatment plan which she’s begun this week. The most difficult thing is waiting to see how this med will help… Any
of the meds will take six months in her system to determine its effectiveness. So, for now we take comfort in the fact that God will
continue to lead as we press on with Him.
#teamzipf
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
More Refining...
Amy is beginning day 5 in the hospital. Don't be too worried though... we're praying she has a seizure. I know... weird request - I would have never thought in all my life I'd be asking God for that.
However, since she's hooked up to an EEG24/7 so the doctors can monitor her brain activity to isolate where the seizures are originating.. THEN they can discern a treatment plan.
As you may know she was on track to begin MS treatments soon, but on Wednesday afternoon March 13 Amy had a seizure. It only affected her right side of her body and lasted about 30 seconds, but to her it felt like an eternity. She was paralyzed with fear having no idea what was going on or how to stop it. What was worse, she was walking home from our local YMCA and in the middle of a grassy area... alone. She'd fumbled for her phone to call 911 but the experience ended almost as quickly as it had begun. By the time a distant bystander had run over to help her, Amy was able to regain her composure and decided to walk home. (That's Amy for ya! :) )I was home studying unaware of anything that had just happened so when she walked in the door and headed to take a shower I didn't come in to talk to her until she sat down to eat something.
When she said, "I think I just had a seizure" I picked up the phone immediately to call her Doctor. Her doctor at first seemed to think it was an isolated event, but ordered an appointment with another Neurologist for the following Tuesday (3/19).
The next few days were filled with all kinds of additional questions as we waited for the appointment. We were both on edge... feeling an array of emotions - anger, anxiousness, what about her job? will I still be able to graduate in June? should I go get a job now? disability paperwork? will it be short term, long term? is this how life will be from now on? Aaahhhggghh.... what do we do!??
So... after we settled down some... we went for another run on Friday (and began to think the seizure was an isolated event) we had a good weekend with family in NJ and PA and waited to see the Neurologist on the following Tuesday.
On Monday afternoon (3/18)we went for another 5mi run and it felt great. ... Until 20 min later Amy seized again. Same side, same length of time. Crap. now what!!...
We then knew it wasn't an isolated event and we knew it could be exercised induced. Amy was crushed... she loves to run... has loved it for the last 15 years. C'mon, God... what are you doing?! The next couple days were extra hard. We went to the neurologist appt... but we were not really "together"... this was all so sudden... so... so... debilitating. feeling powerless...unable to make any sense of this at all. By Wednesday we were existing together...I wanted to help, but could only just "remain" with her... (see John 15:1-13 for what I mean) She was hurting... and I couldn't fix her. I prayed some more... begging God to heal her heart and her body... The neurologist that we'd seen on Tuesday said that her only option was to go for a long term EEG test so they could tell exactly what was happening in her brain during the seizure so they could then treat it... it was a tough call... she'd began to wonder if she just gave up running - the thing she loves so much - that she could go back to work by the weekend.
On Thursday night (3/21) I took Sasha and TK with me to a dinner/prayer time at my school. We got home around 8.. then Amy and I were able to talk some more. It was a good time together... just sitting at our kitchen table trying to process all of this reconnecting and praying together... we felt good about moving forward - until...
...minutes after we wrapped up our talk and started to clean up the table... Amy felt the "aura" and she seized again. Same side, same length of time... followed by a much deeper feeling of powerlessness... now it was really unpredictable.
She headed to bed and I wrote a letter to the neurologist asking about a bed for the long term EEG... in some ways it felt good to get her assessed... but in so many other ways... it felt like we were conceding... So that brings us to today Tue (3/26)...as I said, she's just begun day 5 of waiting to have a seizure so the doctors can figure out what's causing it and how to treat it. As you may guess the last few weeks... especially the last several days have been very difficult, but God has shown us some snapshots that have blessed us tremendously: We have been blessed by friends taking care of the kids so Amy and I can be together... we've been blessed by friends who encourage us and hold us accountable... we've been blessed by stories of others who are realizing their own desperateness in other ways and are reaching out toward Jesus outstretched arms... we have been so blessed by The Body of Christ who are standing in the gap for us and holding us when when can't stand.
We have also been blessed by the response of our kids... Kenni is stepping up huge and helping me with the younger three.. she has been an incredible help!...Last Thursday night I took Sasha and Tariku with me to school to the dinner and prayer time. I wanted to go to be with other brothers and sisters that I could pray with and be encouraged by ....and hoping that Amy would feel a little less chaos at home if two of the kids were with me.
I'd planned on sitting at a back table that night, but Sasha pranced right up to the front table with TK bouncing right behind. At first I was a little unnerved, but I must admit it was cool for Sasha to sit right next to the Dean of our Seminary. (Afterall, Dr Fombelle is a great man and another favorite professor.) Sash and TK were their usual joyous selves at dinner chatting away with my fellow fledgling theologians... and then it was time to pray. When the announcement came, who jumped to pray first? "Dear jesus, thank you for this day, please bless my mommy, help her get better, thank you for my family and for Daddy's school... oh and bless this food, AMEN." ... it was a good thing my eyes were closed during Tariku's prayer... even though they were red and wet when I opened them. the kids sat nicely during Dr. Fombelle's talk as well... even if I did have to bribe them with a few cookies.
At this point, we are still waiting for answers... and we are still praying and trusting. This morning I read Ps. 9:10 which says,"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." Ps. 9:10
That is a promise from God. No matter where you are, or what you believe God will NEVER break his promises. While it may APPEAR that God is distant, has broken promises, or just feels like he's not even there ... he is still God and he's still in control. He's not left. We live in a messed up world and the fact is that we're all desperate, it's just some days we realize it more than others.After reading that verse in Psalms, this thought came to mind... We "live for" alot of things... but so many of them really - in the grand scheme of things - won't last and have very little value. Sure, they last temporarily -- house, cars, wealth, prestige, power, even relationships get broken, and so does our health... -- what really matters? when you think about your legacy... what is it that will last forever. When the things of this life get stripped away, you find out who you really are... but more importantly -who God really is - and you can see that He is still God and that he still has all things in his loving care.
I may write more about it later, but this weekend we celebrate Easter. The Life, Death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ is the single greatest event in History. Please.. If you don't normally go to church, find a church local to you and learn about the REAL reason for life-changing Peace and Joy - regardless of your circumstances!
If you're local to us here in Central CT there are a number of good churches in our area. if you don't have a church home, join our family at New Life Church in Meriden or if you're in Middletown check out Catalyst Church. If you're closer to East Hampton check out, Hope Church. Go and listen ... your life will never be the same.
In closing, we are unable to express the breadth of our thanks for those of you who have been serving us in such awesome ways. It means so much. (I do wonder if there might be someone that would want to read a few hundred pages for me and write up some 'cliff's notes' so i could spend some time with Amy... if so, that would be great.)
Seriously, We're doing ok...I think rather than feeling overwhelmed and getting blown away by the storm, we're putting our heads into the wind and marching on - together. We're together in this and we're realizing more areas where God is refining us even more... we don't like it, we wouldn't wish it on anyone else... but we're certain that God knows what he's doing.
For our kids... it's all in how we present what we know.. we're not hiding anything and we're not keeping them from the struggle. They're in this with us...and we are grateful for the invaluable lessons that God is teaching them through this experience as well.
For me I think that God is showing me how much he loves me by caring for Amy... especially in the areas where I am truly unable to do so.
For Amy... she's doing well - she's an incredible woman and we here at #teamzipf can't wait for her to be well and home. She's anxious for this to be over too. She wants to get back to life too, but she knows that this refining time is good for her as well. It's not easy, but she has the "peace that passes all understanding" and takes confidence in the fact that God is still on the throne and He will lead us through this... together.
Onward,
Pete
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Rom. 15:13
However, since she's hooked up to an EEG24/7 so the doctors can monitor her brain activity to isolate where the seizures are originating.. THEN they can discern a treatment plan.
As you may know she was on track to begin MS treatments soon, but on Wednesday afternoon March 13 Amy had a seizure. It only affected her right side of her body and lasted about 30 seconds, but to her it felt like an eternity. She was paralyzed with fear having no idea what was going on or how to stop it. What was worse, she was walking home from our local YMCA and in the middle of a grassy area... alone. She'd fumbled for her phone to call 911 but the experience ended almost as quickly as it had begun. By the time a distant bystander had run over to help her, Amy was able to regain her composure and decided to walk home. (That's Amy for ya! :) )I was home studying unaware of anything that had just happened so when she walked in the door and headed to take a shower I didn't come in to talk to her until she sat down to eat something.
When she said, "I think I just had a seizure" I picked up the phone immediately to call her Doctor. Her doctor at first seemed to think it was an isolated event, but ordered an appointment with another Neurologist for the following Tuesday (3/19).
The next few days were filled with all kinds of additional questions as we waited for the appointment. We were both on edge... feeling an array of emotions - anger, anxiousness, what about her job? will I still be able to graduate in June? should I go get a job now? disability paperwork? will it be short term, long term? is this how life will be from now on? Aaahhhggghh.... what do we do!??
So... after we settled down some... we went for another run on Friday (and began to think the seizure was an isolated event) we had a good weekend with family in NJ and PA and waited to see the Neurologist on the following Tuesday.
On Monday afternoon (3/18)we went for another 5mi run and it felt great. ... Until 20 min later Amy seized again. Same side, same length of time. Crap. now what!!...
We then knew it wasn't an isolated event and we knew it could be exercised induced. Amy was crushed... she loves to run... has loved it for the last 15 years. C'mon, God... what are you doing?! The next couple days were extra hard. We went to the neurologist appt... but we were not really "together"... this was all so sudden... so... so... debilitating. feeling powerless...unable to make any sense of this at all. By Wednesday we were existing together...I wanted to help, but could only just "remain" with her... (see John 15:1-13 for what I mean) She was hurting... and I couldn't fix her. I prayed some more... begging God to heal her heart and her body... The neurologist that we'd seen on Tuesday said that her only option was to go for a long term EEG test so they could tell exactly what was happening in her brain during the seizure so they could then treat it... it was a tough call... she'd began to wonder if she just gave up running - the thing she loves so much - that she could go back to work by the weekend.
On Thursday night (3/21) I took Sasha and TK with me to a dinner/prayer time at my school. We got home around 8.. then Amy and I were able to talk some more. It was a good time together... just sitting at our kitchen table trying to process all of this reconnecting and praying together... we felt good about moving forward - until...
...minutes after we wrapped up our talk and started to clean up the table... Amy felt the "aura" and she seized again. Same side, same length of time... followed by a much deeper feeling of powerlessness... now it was really unpredictable.
She headed to bed and I wrote a letter to the neurologist asking about a bed for the long term EEG... in some ways it felt good to get her assessed... but in so many other ways... it felt like we were conceding... So that brings us to today Tue (3/26)...as I said, she's just begun day 5 of waiting to have a seizure so the doctors can figure out what's causing it and how to treat it. As you may guess the last few weeks... especially the last several days have been very difficult, but God has shown us some snapshots that have blessed us tremendously: We have been blessed by friends taking care of the kids so Amy and I can be together... we've been blessed by friends who encourage us and hold us accountable... we've been blessed by stories of others who are realizing their own desperateness in other ways and are reaching out toward Jesus outstretched arms... we have been so blessed by The Body of Christ who are standing in the gap for us and holding us when when can't stand.
We have also been blessed by the response of our kids... Kenni is stepping up huge and helping me with the younger three.. she has been an incredible help!...Last Thursday night I took Sasha and Tariku with me to school to the dinner and prayer time. I wanted to go to be with other brothers and sisters that I could pray with and be encouraged by ....and hoping that Amy would feel a little less chaos at home if two of the kids were with me.
I'd planned on sitting at a back table that night, but Sasha pranced right up to the front table with TK bouncing right behind. At first I was a little unnerved, but I must admit it was cool for Sasha to sit right next to the Dean of our Seminary. (Afterall, Dr Fombelle is a great man and another favorite professor.) Sash and TK were their usual joyous selves at dinner chatting away with my fellow fledgling theologians... and then it was time to pray. When the announcement came, who jumped to pray first? "Dear jesus, thank you for this day, please bless my mommy, help her get better, thank you for my family and for Daddy's school... oh and bless this food, AMEN." ... it was a good thing my eyes were closed during Tariku's prayer... even though they were red and wet when I opened them. the kids sat nicely during Dr. Fombelle's talk as well... even if I did have to bribe them with a few cookies.
At this point, we are still waiting for answers... and we are still praying and trusting. This morning I read Ps. 9:10 which says,"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." Ps. 9:10
That is a promise from God. No matter where you are, or what you believe God will NEVER break his promises. While it may APPEAR that God is distant, has broken promises, or just feels like he's not even there ... he is still God and he's still in control. He's not left. We live in a messed up world and the fact is that we're all desperate, it's just some days we realize it more than others.After reading that verse in Psalms, this thought came to mind... We "live for" alot of things... but so many of them really - in the grand scheme of things - won't last and have very little value. Sure, they last temporarily -- house, cars, wealth, prestige, power, even relationships get broken, and so does our health... -- what really matters? when you think about your legacy... what is it that will last forever. When the things of this life get stripped away, you find out who you really are... but more importantly -who God really is - and you can see that He is still God and that he still has all things in his loving care.
I may write more about it later, but this weekend we celebrate Easter. The Life, Death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ is the single greatest event in History. Please.. If you don't normally go to church, find a church local to you and learn about the REAL reason for life-changing Peace and Joy - regardless of your circumstances!
If you're local to us here in Central CT there are a number of good churches in our area. if you don't have a church home, join our family at New Life Church in Meriden or if you're in Middletown check out Catalyst Church. If you're closer to East Hampton check out, Hope Church. Go and listen ... your life will never be the same.
In closing, we are unable to express the breadth of our thanks for those of you who have been serving us in such awesome ways. It means so much. (I do wonder if there might be someone that would want to read a few hundred pages for me and write up some 'cliff's notes' so i could spend some time with Amy... if so, that would be great.)
Seriously, We're doing ok...I think rather than feeling overwhelmed and getting blown away by the storm, we're putting our heads into the wind and marching on - together. We're together in this and we're realizing more areas where God is refining us even more... we don't like it, we wouldn't wish it on anyone else... but we're certain that God knows what he's doing.
For our kids... it's all in how we present what we know.. we're not hiding anything and we're not keeping them from the struggle. They're in this with us...and we are grateful for the invaluable lessons that God is teaching them through this experience as well.
For me I think that God is showing me how much he loves me by caring for Amy... especially in the areas where I am truly unable to do so.
For Amy... she's doing well - she's an incredible woman and we here at #teamzipf can't wait for her to be well and home. She's anxious for this to be over too. She wants to get back to life too, but she knows that this refining time is good for her as well. It's not easy, but she has the "peace that passes all understanding" and takes confidence in the fact that God is still on the throne and He will lead us through this... together.
Onward,
Pete
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Rom. 15:13
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
#teamzipf adventures
I created this originally for Amy for Valentine's Day but it's a fun look at our adventures from over the last year.
Monday, February 18, 2013
one step at a time
Last week, Amy and I were finally able to sit alone together and begin to process through our feelings… not like we aren’t unfiltered normally... but it was just good to just be together... and vent. All these mixed feelings… denial, uncertainty and frustration. She knows she can't deny the reality of this diagnosis (MS – now just two weeks old)... but we'd rather not have to deal with it.
In a letter to friends and family several days ago, I said,
"For a reason only known to Him, God has blessed us with this disease to steward as we walk with him. For those of you that might have a hard time wrapping your mind around that statement... that's ok. What I mean is that that while we firmly believe that God did not "curse" us with this disease, he did allow it. We live in a fallen broken, hurting world - and in an imperfect world, imperfect things happen. This is even more evidence that we are ALL desperate for a Savior... it's just that some days we notice more than others."
While I believe this whole heartedly... it still hurts...
I normally think out loud and am blessed by the transparent talks with those closest to me... Amy talks too... but she's more contemplative; then talks when she's ready to share. (Although, when she arrives at the place where she’s ready to talk.. she just emotionally vomits. J You can check out her thoughts here.)
In the last week or so, things are beginning to get back to a sense of normalcy… I’m finding it a little less cumbersome to stay focused on my seminary studies, the kids will FINALLY be getting back to school tomorrow (2/18) after “Snowpocalypse” kept them from school for just shy of two weeks… and Amy has eased back into a lighter work schedule as of last Friday.
It has been a roller coaster and we know that we’ll have more ups and downs, obstacles and new adventures ahead. We’re just taking it one step at a time.
As the noise has settled some - we have begun the long process of recalibrating our vantage point and gaining clarity with this new perspective. It’s not easy however, a recent note from a close friend has been especially meaningful:
"I never realized before how much becoming more like Jesus requires of us to suffer the pain of this life as He did. That makes sense to me, but living in the experience is different than simply reading about it in Scripture."
Let me first say that God is a God of healing and restoration… and we are relentlessly pursuing His throne for that… However, we both know that God may have different things planned, which he will endure with us. Not only does God know us better than we know ourselves, but he knows what pain and suffering is infinitely more than we do. It is true that this illness may not affect Amy’s daily life for a long time (some Doctors and other MS Patients we’ve talked to have led active healthy lives for decades!) That said, regardless of the outcome, we want are asking that God strengthen us and shape us through this (2Cor. 12:9-10) so that others truly see Him for who He is.
Walking with God requires obedience and submission… and even though I would rather that Amy NOT have to bear this weight… I know that God has bigger and better plans… as we walk with Him, one step at a time.
In a letter to friends and family several days ago, I said,
"For a reason only known to Him, God has blessed us with this disease to steward as we walk with him. For those of you that might have a hard time wrapping your mind around that statement... that's ok. What I mean is that that while we firmly believe that God did not "curse" us with this disease, he did allow it. We live in a fallen broken, hurting world - and in an imperfect world, imperfect things happen. This is even more evidence that we are ALL desperate for a Savior... it's just that some days we notice more than others."
While I believe this whole heartedly... it still hurts...
I normally think out loud and am blessed by the transparent talks with those closest to me... Amy talks too... but she's more contemplative; then talks when she's ready to share. (Although, when she arrives at the place where she’s ready to talk.. she just emotionally vomits. J You can check out her thoughts here.)
In the last week or so, things are beginning to get back to a sense of normalcy… I’m finding it a little less cumbersome to stay focused on my seminary studies, the kids will FINALLY be getting back to school tomorrow (2/18) after “Snowpocalypse” kept them from school for just shy of two weeks… and Amy has eased back into a lighter work schedule as of last Friday.
It has been a roller coaster and we know that we’ll have more ups and downs, obstacles and new adventures ahead. We’re just taking it one step at a time.
As the noise has settled some - we have begun the long process of recalibrating our vantage point and gaining clarity with this new perspective. It’s not easy however, a recent note from a close friend has been especially meaningful:
"I never realized before how much becoming more like Jesus requires of us to suffer the pain of this life as He did. That makes sense to me, but living in the experience is different than simply reading about it in Scripture."
Let me first say that God is a God of healing and restoration… and we are relentlessly pursuing His throne for that… However, we both know that God may have different things planned, which he will endure with us. Not only does God know us better than we know ourselves, but he knows what pain and suffering is infinitely more than we do. It is true that this illness may not affect Amy’s daily life for a long time (some Doctors and other MS Patients we’ve talked to have led active healthy lives for decades!) That said, regardless of the outcome, we want are asking that God strengthen us and shape us through this (2Cor. 12:9-10) so that others truly see Him for who He is.
Walking with God requires obedience and submission… and even though I would rather that Amy NOT have to bear this weight… I know that God has bigger and better plans… as we walk with Him, one step at a time.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
I just couldn't stay in my chair.. she needed me.
I had just prayed with the girls before they went to bed and came out of their room to pick up around the house. I came back to my laptop to do some work and heard pages turning in the girls' room. If it wasn't already way past the time she needed to sleep I would have let her read some more, but I walked in and asked for Kenni's flashlight and told her to put her book away. I wasn't harsh and spoke softly, but I was direct and I guess that combined with her feeling ashamed for being "caught" (good grief, it was only reading, right?... I supposed I should be glad she was trying to get in another chapter before her eyes fell shut.) Anyway... she put her book in between the mattress and bed frame and hung her head. I consoled her again... told her I loved her and said that she needed to get to sleep.
Not five minutes later I was at my desk doing some work and heard her crying... it wasn't just weepy tears... it was that sobbing sound down in her gut. For just a moment i thought... I'll talk to her in the morning... she'll be ok. I knew she was tired and I knew we'd talk about it later... I sat at my desk thinking she'll be ok... but I just couldn't stay in my chair. I went back in her room... I didn't need to say anymore than I already did, but just hugged her while she sobbed... she was embarrassed and tired... I knew she didn't want to disappoint me... I just needed her to know that I love her and that I will love and protect her with all my heart no matter what.
Dads: I'm not perfect either... but there's too much at stake in our little girls lives for us not to storm the gates for them every day. If we don't love and lead them well... they will look in futility for some other guy to fill that role... Guys: no other guy can do your job as, DAD. YOU have to do it. If you don't do ANYTHING else in life... do that job right.
Not five minutes later I was at my desk doing some work and heard her crying... it wasn't just weepy tears... it was that sobbing sound down in her gut. For just a moment i thought... I'll talk to her in the morning... she'll be ok. I knew she was tired and I knew we'd talk about it later... I sat at my desk thinking she'll be ok... but I just couldn't stay in my chair. I went back in her room... I didn't need to say anymore than I already did, but just hugged her while she sobbed... she was embarrassed and tired... I knew she didn't want to disappoint me... I just needed her to know that I love her and that I will love and protect her with all my heart no matter what.
Dads: I'm not perfect either... but there's too much at stake in our little girls lives for us not to storm the gates for them every day. If we don't love and lead them well... they will look in futility for some other guy to fill that role... Guys: no other guy can do your job as, DAD. YOU have to do it. If you don't do ANYTHING else in life... do that job right.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Aiming for Extraordinary
In light of the state of our nation, our status with the rest of the world, the priorities our culture deems as most important, in the midst of a culture that encourages thoughtless debt, our increasingly litigious society in a country filled with unethical businesses and politicians (on both sides of the isle) -- all being watched by generation of adolescents that will bear the weight of the choices that the "mature" make today... I'd like to encourage fellow parents with the following thoughts:
If you are self motivated and pursued significant steps in your career or just with life in general -train your kids... challenge them to do the same. They won't learn it by spectating. Don't allow them to sit on the couch for hours at a time while you "provide the life you've always wanted for them." If you aren't intentional, if you don't hold them accountable, they won't get it... it's harder, but it's worth it.
I do not believe I have all the answers...and I don't believe that the specific direction that my wife and I are leading our family will achieve perfect results. I'm terribly flawed and am incredibly appreciative of the wisdom shared by those that help to refine my life. However, after seeing so much potential be wasted... I refuse to take the easy route.
Our previous generations have had the best intentions to provide "a better life" for their children.. the only problem is that we've created a generation of those who don't understand the value of dollar, the hard work that goes into it, and the struggle that is required to achieve the goals and milestones to gain the wisdom and maturity to know how valuable that process its. don't settle for what everyone else claims is acceptable... the last I checked... Status Quo didn't achieve extraordinary.
What changes do you need to make personally?
Are you with us?
If you are self motivated and pursued significant steps in your career or just with life in general -train your kids... challenge them to do the same. They won't learn it by spectating. Don't allow them to sit on the couch for hours at a time while you "provide the life you've always wanted for them." If you aren't intentional, if you don't hold them accountable, they won't get it... it's harder, but it's worth it.
I do not believe I have all the answers...and I don't believe that the specific direction that my wife and I are leading our family will achieve perfect results. I'm terribly flawed and am incredibly appreciative of the wisdom shared by those that help to refine my life. However, after seeing so much potential be wasted... I refuse to take the easy route.
Our previous generations have had the best intentions to provide "a better life" for their children.. the only problem is that we've created a generation of those who don't understand the value of dollar, the hard work that goes into it, and the struggle that is required to achieve the goals and milestones to gain the wisdom and maturity to know how valuable that process its. don't settle for what everyone else claims is acceptable... the last I checked... Status Quo didn't achieve extraordinary.
What changes do you need to make personally?
What changes will you make with your family time?
What are the goals you're pursuing with your kids?
What will achieving those goals produce... really?
We're on a relentless pursuit... and we'd love to learn from you... how are you leading your kids to be exceptional?
What are you willing to change to pursue extraordinary?
Are you with us?
(See: Dt. 6:6-9, Joshua 24:15, Rom. 12:1-2, Heb. 4:12, 1Cor. 9:24-25, Heb. 12:1-2,)
Friday, July 20, 2012
Coffee with The Lord
I am always refreshed by my time alone with God. It's often difficult for me to clear my mind and not feel pressed to work on something else- but I am always refreshed by my time with him.
Reading today: Acts 13-16
Reading today: Acts 13-16
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Miraculous Mission, by way of the Dungeon
Acts 12:1-11 shares the account of what Peter believed would be his final day. Peter must have been certain of His death. He may have had a certain confidence about it... but even though he was convinced of God's faithfulness, he had to have been anxious too. Who'd blame him?! Herod had just executed James - one of Peter's closest friends and the reaction of the Jews was so great that Herod decided to capitalize on another popularity boost. Knowing something of Peter's personality, he probably prayed and shared The Gospel with his guards, believing that this time would be his last opportunity to preach the Word.
1 It was about this time that King Herod arrested some who belonged to the church, intending to persecute them.2 He had James, the brother of John, put to death with the sword.3 When he saw that this met with approval among the Jews, he proceeded to seize Peter also. This happened during the Festival of Unleavened Bread.4 After arresting him, he put him in prison, handing him over to be guarded by four squads of four soldiers each. Herod intended to bring him out for public trial after the Passover. 5 So Peter was kept in prison, but the church was earnestly praying to God for him. 6 The night before Herod was to bring him to trial, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries stood guard at the entrance.7 Suddenly an angel of the Lord appeared and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him up. "Quick, get up!" he said, and the chains fell off Peter's wrists. 8 Then the angel said to him, "Put on your clothes and sandals." And Peter did so. "Wrap your cloak around you and follow me," the angel told him.9 Peter followed him out of the prison, but he had no idea that what the angel was doing was really happening; he thought he was seeing a vision.10 They passed the first and second guards and came to the iron gate leading to the city. It opened for them by itself, and they went through it. When they had walked the length of one street, suddenly the angel left him. 11 Then Peter came to himself and said, "Now I know without a doubt that the Lord has sent his angel and rescued me from Herod's clutches and from everything the Jewish people were hoping would happen."
The rest of the story shares how Peter found himself alone on the city street after the Angel left him. (Almost as if to say, "Ok you're free, don't just stand there... you've got more work to do!") So Peter strolls over to a friends house and knocks on the door. (this next part is a riot....) Peter knocks on the door of the home where all his friends are praying for his release. When the servant girl answers the door and sees him, then she runs back -leaving Peter still outside the gate - and interrupts the prayer time to tell everyone that their friend is standing at the door - but they don't believe her! Incensed, they all probably return to their knees to continue with their prayer. However, they had a very different reaction when moments later, Peter is standing next to the servant girl in their living room.
All his friends were "astonished". Peter quieted them, and "described how the Lord had brought him out of prison". When he was done, he asked them to pass his words on to James (1/2 brother of Jesus) and he left... "for another place" and continued another 25 years of incredible ministry!
We have to trust that while we're in the Dungeon, God still has a Miraculous Mission ahead.
1 It was about this time that King Herod arrested some who belonged to the church, intending to persecute them.2 He had James, the brother of John, put to death with the sword.3 When he saw that this met with approval among the Jews, he proceeded to seize Peter also. This happened during the Festival of Unleavened Bread.4 After arresting him, he put him in prison, handing him over to be guarded by four squads of four soldiers each. Herod intended to bring him out for public trial after the Passover. 5 So Peter was kept in prison, but the church was earnestly praying to God for him. 6 The night before Herod was to bring him to trial, Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains, and sentries stood guard at the entrance.7 Suddenly an angel of the Lord appeared and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him up. "Quick, get up!" he said, and the chains fell off Peter's wrists. 8 Then the angel said to him, "Put on your clothes and sandals." And Peter did so. "Wrap your cloak around you and follow me," the angel told him.9 Peter followed him out of the prison, but he had no idea that what the angel was doing was really happening; he thought he was seeing a vision.10 They passed the first and second guards and came to the iron gate leading to the city. It opened for them by itself, and they went through it. When they had walked the length of one street, suddenly the angel left him. 11 Then Peter came to himself and said, "Now I know without a doubt that the Lord has sent his angel and rescued me from Herod's clutches and from everything the Jewish people were hoping would happen."
The rest of the story shares how Peter found himself alone on the city street after the Angel left him. (Almost as if to say, "Ok you're free, don't just stand there... you've got more work to do!") So Peter strolls over to a friends house and knocks on the door. (this next part is a riot....) Peter knocks on the door of the home where all his friends are praying for his release. When the servant girl answers the door and sees him, then she runs back -leaving Peter still outside the gate - and interrupts the prayer time to tell everyone that their friend is standing at the door - but they don't believe her! Incensed, they all probably return to their knees to continue with their prayer. However, they had a very different reaction when moments later, Peter is standing next to the servant girl in their living room.
All his friends were "astonished". Peter quieted them, and "described how the Lord had brought him out of prison". When he was done, he asked them to pass his words on to James (1/2 brother of Jesus) and he left... "for another place" and continued another 25 years of incredible ministry!
We have to trust that while we're in the Dungeon, God still has a Miraculous Mission ahead.
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